Confusion at the BBQ: WHAT is Your Quest...?

Yesterday, I attended a 'Meet New People' thing picnic hosted by a certain Asian woman. She's never seemed to like me much at other events. She seems to wanna host events, and I'm not sure why. Some other attendee brought 98% of EVERYTHING (like, seriously he's amazing), I brought a cooler fulla soda and chips, another gal brought dessert. But this woman is so DRAB. As in, she doesn't TALK. Also, she brought a pack of hot dogs, no buns. But she still somehow wants to be the Party Master or something. Lucky us, it takes her a good 45 minutes to gather up the courage to slow-crash the train of conversation, but--

Made ME start thinking, tho. Why am I doing this? What's my goal? A buzz of lots of people? A hodgepodge, patchwork family? People I'd wanna bring to my house? Ms. (Or possibly Mrs. with a divorce in the courts) Right Now? Or as that beautiful Colombian girl with her easy smile says to me from the Valleyfair drink stand, Have you learned to relax and go with the flow...?

Confusion Resolving: What is MY Quest?

The previous post (in which I questioned someone's reason for hosting events) led me to question my reason for attending them. Or any at all. Good questions.

And as Deepak tells you, let the answers find you. I'd like to believe they did.

As a result, I now have the number of this really cool couple who just moved from another state. He's already formulating a BBQ in his head.

I also offered a phone exchange to a woman I found interesting on a friendship level. She balked. I immediately replied that Hesitation Equals No, told her it was NBD and not to worry. Was that what she expected? Not sure. But first of all, it oughtta be. Second, I wasn't trying to date her (but even if I was)...

Ended my day Lucky enough to sit under the stars in a whirlpool and unravel a few more things About My Past to Myself. A lot, honestly. Good stuff.

If you're one of the people patient enough to bear with me through my 'Just Between You and Me' convos? Thank you. Thank you so very much. You're all I have, and not everyone wishes to be